During our yosi break this afternoon, a colleague asked nonchalantly "Do you look at yourself in the mirror naked?"
I immediately said "No!"
Being as defensive as I am, I started saying that I don't look at every nook and cranny of my body and that I find it weird.
In my head, I added that I don't stare at myself in the mirror and make hoots while admiring the beauty that is ME!
Then I thought about it.
I don't really look at myself in the mirror as often as my other colleagues do. Yes, I check if I'm decent.
I put some rouge, put a bit of face power to cover the dark spots and dab the oil from my face. But I never spend a long period of time looking at myself in the mirror.
Not because I'm not vain 'cus God knows there is a big chunk of vanity in me. I guess the reason behind it is, in my head I know how I look. Or should look. Confident, smart, talented, pretty... and I wanna keep it that way.
I'm afraid that if I look in the mirror too long, I'll be wrong. I can't afford to be wrong. I've built my confidence for 28years for me to be wrong about myself.
It's a scary thought, not seeing the person I have in my head through my reflection.
But you're a beautiful person inside and out. You don't have to be afraid to look at the person in the mirror.
ReplyDeleteThanks apol....
ReplyDelete:)
Can't believe im actually sharing this... hehe
Belle, you are a beauty in my eyes. You are someone I am very glad that I have met. Love you Belly!
ReplyDeleteParteeboi:
ReplyDeleteAw that's shweet.... thanks
I think u can keep the the way of looking as confident, smart, talented, pretty
ReplyDeleteat the same time, spend more time with mirror and its not conflicting.
I almost saw ur hotel pics and im sure u re sexy and can spend more time cuz of this.